Sunday, December 27, 2009

chrismast with lalats








love , lalats :)

Saturday, December 26, 2009

ily sayang :)
baru baru ni kita rapat balik kan, its good tho, kita dah besar, dari kecik kot kita been nagging around and im glad we have been throug everything. mcm ni lah. senang cerita i'll always love you, cuma kadang kadang u cant count me on timing, aku mmg selalu lambat,hehe. kadang kadang lambat setahun.. the point is here,stick together till the end kayh. and aku nak kau bersabar je with everything, bout awish and apa apa je lah, just know im always at by ur side.be strong because we are. :')

license

i want a driving license, currently im driving without it. :)

memory card

the story about u, and behind it.


first is the day where i accidently lost my memory card,well actually its inside my phone but i thought its gone. what a bad day it was. i had absolute no mood , sorry guards and aza, she took lall the blame for the dorm ransack that was done by me. that night and that whole day, putrajaya hujan and we are having difficulties in controlling our flag, sejuk sgt and hujan . so there i was with ZERO mood, after that everything turn out to be ok, da mula redha dgn kehilang.. malam tu nak sgt jumpa zulfikar tp ta dapat.


then teman zumie pergi toilet dgn elisa sekali, ada 3 org ni pakai bju navy. rupanya budak st.john, i talked to then but hmm ta layan haha. but then this one guys jalan kat sebelah i and i was like tingginye kau, then i ask, baju apa ni? oh kitorg da tuka dari cadet band jd navy band..he talked to me politely and blew me away with his smile ''umur u brapa?''i form 4 u?''haih,u teka lah"aha tak tahu la,"i form 5" da tua dah. :( jahat oh u, ezad.. omg my heart beat like almost never wanted to stop.. so we walked together and talked, he made me smile.. and my heart was stolen. but then the story goes,i keep thinking about him, then nama dia dah terlekat jadi memory card, zumy's fault, heh. teach me saber movement eh nanti? :)


the next day was grand final, and i really want him! so i found him and the night and the next day, im happy but still ..

terbaik

grand final

zamir




memories :)








best sis and best roomate at primula terengganu .
theres much more

8/12/2009






the day when the last paper are taken, chemistry paper dah habis means spm dah habis.
hehe,lalats ada still 10, tak ubah apa apa pun just time outing tu ada je yg short dua tiga org
haih na buat mcm mana kan ,tak semua ada masa.rindu dan sgt tak sabar untuk future:)


time to flyy :)

when everythings over


i miss all those school year, all the things that i had go on through , every single moment , beat and time, i am proud to graduate, its sad to leave everything behind and move on to the next level,stepping up a whole new life rank for myself.the twist, the chaos , the happiness, the sadness, the numbness,everythinbg comes down to an end of the new begining, its sad to see that we are going our separate ways, figure out new things,but thats life and we have to move on. i learn from the very bottom the value of live and i turn from dust to gold from thin to thick knowledge owner, i owe all my gratitude as a student and as a cheerleader,as a colourguard leader,as the red cresent society member,as a dancer, as an actor, everything i could ever imagine i tried.2005-2009 remain strong in my memory. :)

so long, fairwell











hari hari terakhir bersekolah, sob sob :') all the memories will kept treasure in my mind forever,, class of 2005-2009 :)

nak start balik

i love blogging!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

hello

hey, thanks for the drink ;)
i was walking alone while waiting my mom, then terserempak dgn dia, so pg makan, then dia blanja air, thanks yeah sutey or also known as rashid, saiz kasut kami sama bermakna kisah hidup lebih kurang je sama :P

friend

saturday:

me: u ada paper ape today?
him:today cuti la.nyanyok da ek?haha
me:yea, brusedar yg tu soalan yg tak relavan..
eh! harini sabtu doh i ingt jumaat -_- lol
him:haha nvm,, u tinggal satu lg paper an?
me: hell yea, this tuesday.u?
him:2 more paper.ea and s.sukan .haha damn
me: haha , ta pg prac ke?
him:nope malas na dtg.
me: ta pg date ke? haha
him:date ngn sape plak ni? haha no one gonna date dgn i la:P
me:tipu lah , haha
him: mmg takda pun, adoyai pernah ke i tipu you before this?
yg u tu tak pg date pulak?
me:hehe, no one gonna date dgn i la, haha (ikut ayt balik)
him: haha yeah right.
me:kenapa, btul la tu kalau btul pun apa salahnya. haha

sunday,
the conversation repeated :P haha

oh , i miss hanging out with you guys so much doh.

settle day

saturday supposed,

me and sis went to school, thingking that everything might be okay then,
everything seems so hollow at school and by that i mean bad energy is surrounding,
yea i do care bout the band but ever since things turn out to be that way, i care to let my only self hurt while others enjoyed and cheerished thier so called happy moments, i know im not that welcome to be there anymore since everything is new by now, i know the power is not n my hands anymore but remember without who i am and who i used to be before this, u guys couldnt ever get close to what we have achieved slightly this year, remember one thing i'll always be around and if im not needed let me know not show me through your expressions.sincere is the key , pray to always be held and help not big headed selfish attitude that is not needed, sucsses is not what we crave for is what we get for wanting it so bad. sucsess is not in your hands,its by gods will. please dont be rude? we didnt teach u that, i didnt told you to be that. its okay i know, its ur time now.

that afternoon,

i called you, i heard about u, im crazy about u. thank god tak jumpa u, im not ready yet although i wanted to.

that evening,

sis cyla, me and aza went to makan cendol ,abc kat midnight, rojak mee satu, haha. borak borak and yea, we miss hanging out like really melepak weh, kat kedai murah. exmple: anisup utara :)

Thursday, December 3, 2009

where is dee?

tuesday,wednesday and thursday she's busy practising -_-

next paper chemisrty .FINAL one, btw. to many things nak ckp and explain, but its explicable lah.


im tired , and i miss life
here is something funny to share, malam tu aku ke rumah aza , esok die ada paper science tp gedik jugak mau jalan2 so we went out that nite, mula2 hajat nak pg tngok pojie kat beserah tp ta jadi, jauh sgt, then she told me something! haha kite ni bertindak bodoh la weh.because bile je die cite, i terus text him cakap
sebenarnye kan, sy da lama nak ckp, tp tatau mcm mana. sy suka kat awak !
bodoh kan dee, then die call aza, that time aza mau cover tp tak boleh. sbb die tau i kat sebelah tngah drive, bapak lah nak gelak guling semua ade, haih ta sangka, while waiting my mom too habis tngok wayang pergi la online jap sbb na tngok sapa hamba allah yg bertuah tu kat who i'd like to meet die, skali tngok2 WEH, MINAH NI ARTIS JEPUN LA, MARIA OZAWA ,23 YEARS OLD. hahahahah -_- guling2 kitorg kat situ, then pg minum kat taj, still taleh lupe kejadian tu.
lepak2 kat taj tu mcm2 arh cite kua, then tibe2 terfikir, kite tak cukup tua la untuk lepak mcm ni, haha.. ambik umi kat ecm then balik, tngok papadom separuh je then tetido. dua kali da kejadian tu . huuuh aza kate..
weh kalau science aku A, ingtkan aku pasal malam ni eh, aku nak gelak balik pasal kisah kite yg ni. hahah.(sbb malam tu esoknye ada exam science.haha)
insyallah. amin..

adrenalin

right after addmaths paper fyi.
esok tu kan raya haji but my family semua allocated kat gambang,
so bace la ebdurance tu.
that nite,
pg raya rumah min. hehe klaka.. tp best lah byk story,
diorg decide to teman me that nite haha, esok tu ada date dgn beeha, tp kitorg tido bapak lambat kul 4 pagi mcm tu kot. then galak galak, online semua tngok movie la tu la ni la.. mcm2 then sedar2 je da pukul brape tah kan. siap siap ade 3 halangan bertubi tubi

1.tiada transport
2.tiada hala tujuan
3.tiada makanan and sumpah starving.

jalan kaki pg ecm then mega, yg bestnye balik naik teksi haha,kena claim sumting dgn umi nie huhu, tak na byk ckp tngok je gamba. aww rindu. btw, ada janji yg tidak sy tepati -_- agak sedih


biology

"greeeekkk,kruukkm"(suposed to be the sound of the chair)
i twirl my pen and looked at the clock, 1 second left.
everybody was busy flipping their bio paper back and foward. i did it too,

"ok masa untuk menjawab sudah tamat,sila letakkan pen dan berhenti menulis"

ayat keramat tu.END of biology paper, heh, agak susah la -_- doakan je la tuk yg terbaik, bengang dgn paper 2 taktau kenapa. texted kak cyla, then ta jadi pg sukpa sbb

sis cyla: mood harini mcm na tngok wayang je.
diana: haha JOM!

2012, agak merepek tp ok la.takut jugak, ni secong movie date dgn sis,

yg ni second

yg ni first
then borak borak, balik tido :)

Thursday, November 26, 2009

endurance

thoughts,

i never thought that my adha eid would be so cousy and stuff,
by makin a strick and strong decision that im not gonna follow my family to gambang, i by now laying down like the most lazy beyong the lazziest valley,so i woke up and ate my mom's cooking without waiting pacingly, i ate almost like i dont care or forgot that i should stop,my throat is like burning and i am uncomfortable with that.i still think about yesterday well apparently i slept 3 in the mornin on the phone i guess,after all the thoughts running through my head it snap out and i wen straight heading to my laptop, in the friggin morning,im having the feling that today is the most randomly seldomly day that i felt so empty inside and out.the net is like nothing there.reading my blog yesterday gosh updating my mind mentally and physicllyknowing that haih no matter what i wrote he just doesnt realise that,how stressfull and depresed,so i went straight to the mirror, eyebags,zits,oils u name it.messy hair,i couldnt take it to see myself, i weight myself and oh my, the numbers are just so irritating and stressful,i felt nothing less,its like the soul inside of me ran away,and im a zombie rectifying my own explicable problems
thought that came across is , movies. so waited for 10 parts of angus perfect thongs and snugging to buffer fully, and called aza.im bored to death equals to feeling all mushy and stuff,texted a while but i am so beyond the word lazy to reply, and its not like im not in the mood,its just my mind is struck once again, i cried secretly.listening to our song ''flightless bird,american mouth''
"have i found you, flightless bird"
jealous,weeping
or lost you..
yea i did lost you,so i watched angus and really did understand the story,angus is just feeling the same, same situation as i am, but the movies wickhed,after the movie finished i move to tell toilet and just clarify myself..something happened yesterday, dont wanna to think bout it.
my cousin invited me to go her house ,hm im sorry mazzie i dont know how to reach tok sira.
im alone all caught up in my own mess, im sitting relaxed almost the exams are over, theres still two paper more to go.beeha texted and asked if we can hang out tommorow, and yeah we should
the time is 2 o'clok at pavillion and movie at mid valley.so im staring at my laptop waisting the
vital times that i could us to study biology and chemistry,i wanna change really..so im forcing myself to eat citrus fruit to hurt my soar throat more n more but finnaly i twirlled the cap of the cough syrup,my hand are shaking and i could stand being so cold when im not even close to the wind,i almost drink the whole bottle of the syrup, once more i snap out of it and took the right porpotion of it only, just because i felt nothing.what else could be done.

metaphore

hey, i miss you,
kindda needed you,
you have absolute no idea
Italic
how in dying to be with you.
when u leave, i felt like a hole is punched through my heart,the next thing i know,u were'nt there, i have to go through my live without u.

you

u are killing me
its very hard to breath nowdays.i miss a lot of my friends that i have been disappearing from them,xpa 2 papers to go and then i'll be free to contact all of them and insert them in my to do list,yeaa i know, im thingking about forgetting all of my plans and just rest but i dont care.
apart from that all. i miss you ahmad fauzi :(
its not like i wanted to.i just cant forget.

the reason


this is the reason for me to live.
today, hmm planned to go out with sofea and elisa,
im sorry you guys, i cant afford to tell,hmm its hard.
ok first picked up byer and went to school
i wanted to send my pasport picture but i didnt have one, i have the old ones,trust me u wanna laughed till u crack up man looking at my pictures..
then makan nasi goreng daging.mengidam haha
then loitering around then went to FOS,can see from the pictures
then went up ,played dance dance revolution since ages i didnt play that thing
me and aza,
rasmir, najib, raziman,syawal,min,byer,elisa
byer meet her boyfriend,we seprated
ecm there was iqah,gelek and aina.
we walked we talked,byer cried because she saw kecix,hang in there love, u can make it through
then new moon, then ate at noodle station,me,aza,min and wawan talked anout many things since its been ages ,, went home excited to start bloging.huhu
hendry texted and i simply ignore it. nope, i replied..
those are the reason for me to survive

i laughed

situation A:

"diana,kenapa kau tak couple je dgn die, die baik what, not bad la..selalu ade dgn kau.syg kau,buat suprose untuk kau, die sgt baik weh, almost perfect! yg depan mata ade kau tak nampak , yg jauh tu jugak kau kejar..

apparently,those were words that came out from one of my friend without thingking my point of view, saying words randomly is easy when u are not the one sitting in my place or wearing my friggin crocs. do me a favor, and shut the hell up.


situation B:

"kenapa la dengan die, i thought we were over tapi still nak kat aku, what the hell,common, move on la kan..lagipun aku tak minat die sayang apa tah lagi,suka pun tak..tak tahu la macam mana kitorg end up together haritu..

apparently, this is what i think that came out from his thought, i've always waited for something that is so far away, i'll never give up, thats for sure.this is what i say what goes around always comes around.. i see where this all goes..

so i laughed and just so i did, tears run down and i felt like i almost give up, looking in the mirror knowing that,i'll never feel being warm in his warm arms anymore, i'll never kissed his soft lips anymore, i'll never smiled looking at myself knowing that how i wish to change myself so much.
never the less i am recless enough to fall for him.

i miss you

new moon premier

the best okay, i can say that i'll be watching this movie like tons of time kot.

quest

1. is it hard for you to forget the pass?
adee: oo yeah. hell ya.

2.is it possible for you to fall in love again?
adee: in the mean time i am not interested.

3.is it easy for you to breakdown nowdays and reasons.
adee: yess.because im fragile,, -.-

4.is it possible for u to find sumone else?
adee: em , yeah, no , MAYBE.

5.what are you looking foward the most?reasons.
adee:everything. god knows lah why -_-

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

simply the best


time flies


or i shall say, browsing my blog tngok post dulu dulu an. teringat masa lagi 202 hari la spm, mid year exam la mcm mcm lah.. perghh, cant believe do it all come to an end, but it not the ending la kan obviously, i mean i finally almost finish spm doh. how time flies and passes like almost without knowing it. its almost there, we're half way into acomplishing the sweetest part in our life. hows life since i missed out bloging a lot! haha. i pretty much dont want to talk about it well since im moving on and just want to begin a new one starting from today :) because the thing is i dont wanna to look at the past. it sucks, believe me.hmm move on d! a hell lot of a things happen trust me and you dont wanna know. im gonna start bloging again and who knows what i will post next.


alhamdullilah

all my papers were okay la kot, pray for the best je lah
hmm, i know im not the brilliant type of girl or the face of
a score A student, but i guess im trying my best at this!
im not the one have the brains of an einstein,but im giving my all out!
my mum, she's the best, i would wanna see her happy seing my results i wanna make her proud
but im not putting it at a high hope, just pray and hope that everything will be okay..
''saya tak bijak macam awak''



Friday, November 13, 2009

moving on

moving on to new blog,,
im sorry for everything.im a bad person,stay away from me.
here's my final say,

i really am sorry,for all that i did,
i realised that its too late now.
do you know, when u ignore me, i feel like the world is on my shoulder
do you know, it hurts till i become an evil BITCH,
do you know everytime i look at people around me are happy with each other i feel like the world is tumbling down.
i dont know what i have done, i really am sorry.
i shouldnt have wrote the stupid thing in my blog,
big mistake i shall say,
i felt sorry for myself and i felt stupid,
im lost i dont know wht to do nor say,
but now i know,
now i know it all comes down to me,
im sorry, truly am.
i deserve all this crap. to my sisters, im sorry. i love you guys so much,
for god sake, i will not have anything to do with this anymore.


and takpa, i dont mind people calling me gemuk, i am. plus im not beautiful inside even out.
that proves. im sorry.

goodluck everyone, im sorry.


i admit i did a lot of things and mistakes,for all my misbehaviour and stupid mistakes.
i never thought that this day will finally come, the day that i wanted to avoid, the day where i break down and cried for all of my wrong doing,
if i could than i would but i cant,i here by say. im sorry for my life,im sorry for everything..
aku ingin menysusun sepuluh jari memohon maaf atas apa yang telah ku lakukan.
aku bukanlah manusia yang sempurna dan sangat lemah,sesungguhnya semua manusia mempunyai masalah dah dugaan yang diturunkan oleh oleh allah kepada umatnya yang tidak pernah sedar akan kesalahan dalam kehidupan mereka..dengan ini aku memohon agar tuhan ampunkanlah segala dosa dosa ku,sesungguhnya aku merehdhai segala ketentuan ilahi ini ya allah. engkau kurniakanlah kejayaan buat diriku dan sahabatku semoga mereka bahagia disamping orang orang yang mereka sayangi,..amin

Monday, October 19, 2009

byebye baby

so i guess , thiss is the final.THIS TIME I MEAN IT,
im not targeting to high in my spm, just hope it will satisfy myself and my ummi! thats the number one priority, insyaallah i'll try to follow the footsteps of sis asila hanim :) and
together all the lalats sisters succes yea to:
  • beeha
  • myra
  • myza
  • azaaa

and diana,lets go sista!

i'll work my but off till spm, i'll do my best, i'll get what i want,i will.
remember our mission aza ?
*to be with..
*to go to.....
*to be like...
everything that we have been discuss since bulan satu syg.
im sure bout that.we'll go trough this just fine okay?
dear, friends and you guys that is going to go through spm, i wish you guys GOODLUCK ,
all the best in succiding our way through spm, hope you guys get what u guys want,i'll always pray for all my friends and do pray for me yeah ? :)

susah dulu senang kemudian .
spm here i come.

bye bye and assalamualaikum

Sunday, October 18, 2009

day out


this is the final outing okay! :) ada byk lagi ni pictures, take a look at bee's blog lah eh? thanks you guys , hmm enjoy the day much .
im gonna be AWAY ,thank u



Saturday, October 17, 2009

i love you jake


bella wont choose you,but i will. about 3 things that im absolutely positive about u jacob

1.i am so amazed by u and your way of protecting bella.

2.i love everything about u.

3.i fell in love with a wolf.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

nik aiman

well since u are reading my blog kan.

haha, i know , i ni sometimes gila sometimes koya, sometimes pelik la,
im weird, i know, i noticed, but its not like i wanted to,
hey, i know im bad, im a selfish concious freakin girl.
i know, but dont get me wrong. im trying ,,
hmm i know sometimes like im having my stupid mood swing, and u jadi mangsa
sometimes u felt like u were'nt my friend, i know,
what? do you think i dont know,i know all about it.
haha, im not heartless but sometime i can be.although u know me,but u dont quite really understand me rite, i know, i know everything that u dont have to tell.
i know everytime i have problems i come running to you and spill all of the crap out without sometimes giving u space to talk about urs, suprisingly i know.
i know, what u want, u dont have to tell,
someone told me about it
i often blame myself for everything, but sometimes i forget everything,
sorry i could be good enough,i mean againts all odds..
tah la. i cant simply imagine how my life without you in it.
u wanna know a secret. i selalu ingt pasal dulu dulu.
cant snap it out of my mind like seriously,
but theres one part of u i didnt quite get, no matter how stupid i act or how bithcy i were,still i received text messages from u and by that i mean u still wanna be friends with me.
i hurt to much of peoples feeling,that didnt went well i guess.
u are pissed off bout me, i dont know but i guess it,
im sorry for not always being there for you..i guess im scared.
im sorry i cause u so much pain and curiousity..
im sorry i've changed.i know u've been thingking bout..
how i can be so callous sometimes,how i dont care about what people thinks.
i know, u just want me to put just a little understanding into our relationship
i know u wanted to be easy but i make it the other way around.
but apart from all of that, im just so thankful to have you in my life.
u have mean so much to me,u know to much of my problems and you know my mom.
btw,here's another secret. u remember that uzumaki guy from the comic hmm dia macam seseorang, it reminds me of him all the time.
i love you so much and sorry if i tersalah type or terspill out the wrong words or thoughts.
thank you for everything.

still raya-ing

yeah,im driving, hey nik? still ta percaya ke.. haha
oh and yea "BUMPER WEH!"

biha and me were like budak2 gila, penat au swing swing, macam exercise au.haha
btw, we enjoyed the time then, sbb semua mcm kembali jd kanak2 riang an b?
self timer arh ape ag.
ni haa photoshooting jap kat taman selepas dah berabad da tak bergamba

what im trying to say is : tu i yg lukis!HAHA b coloured :)

sapa kata raya dah hbis?belum lg okay.


BEE'S open house :)

semangat ni bgun pagi besiap nak pg umah kau b, then after mentelaah buku jap, mandi2 amik aza then byer, exited nak g umah kau yg ku sgt rindu tu (org di dalam nye au) then straight to bee's heaven.
biasa ah, kita kalau jumpe mmg tayah cakap ah,
beborak bergelak mcm pe je.
zack's friend are cool weh.semua pun not bad je ,
tp yg paling hot yg pakai
"baju belang2 biru ngn coklat ;P"
(zack btw)
dia sgt comel weh, haha.
obvious sgt ke?
im a mess that day ,rambut serabai.
then mia comel dtg, borak2 jap, then dia balik.
pulangnye mia,
terus kitorg jalan2 usha rumah org,
haha, best lah.then the photoshoot.
then its evening and day almost over .
pulang ke teratak bukit sekilau :)
p/s: gamba banyak dalam camera byer weh, tunggu comel tu upload.

Friday, October 9, 2009

piece of art


thanks to cak's t-shirt haha LOL


video
just in time:by alyssa bernal(cover)
begitu slenge nye saya :)

Friday, October 2, 2009

a w a y

Daisypath Vacation tickers

dont you guys know?haha, so officialy gonna stay away from my lappy and myspace,facebook or whatsoever,its time for me to finally face SPM.nowdays times is getting to fast and i can barely wait!

gamba di delete .hehe :P
tiba tiba suka.haha pelik
maybe harapan lah kott