i cant barely sleep thingking

im sorry , ;(

i cant honestly say ,
you've been on my mind since i woke up today.
i think about yesterday all the time
this memories came back to life. i dont mind .

i remember when you smile,
i still see in everytime.
the time that you dance with me when no music playing
i remember those simple things ,
i remember till i cry.

but the one thing i wish i forget
memory i wan to forget ,
is goodbye .

i want to turn back time

i want to turn back time , and i wish i just could keep my mouth shut.i was stupid. im sorry .

you, im sorry

im really really sorry
;(

i wish orientation never ends .

my group

batch 2010/2011 :)

satu dua tiga .kecutt perutt
senam seni , haha

me and akmal :)
pendaftaran subjek ,

i miss them already

the best , elizebeth ramayah, angeline, irena taib, lee she min, visha, pricilla,and me :)

because it was seriously fun . theres more picture . :)

terharu and terkejut

alaaa, mereka dah delete gamba mereka berdua (abg huzaimi dgn kak cyla)

gedik je kan . thanks bish for the photos

at first things i bought at ikea , pastu dah mcm lambat je kan nak jumpa ejat. sampai je klcc teman diorg pg makan ,tak dapat tngok twilight tp sbb ada hikmah , sbb aza dgn kak cyla dtg!!! :') terharu en? mula mula seriously ingt tak dtg tau , pastu dany ah baik punya berlakon . mula mula teman ejat dany dgn bish isap rokok kat luar , then aza suruh pandang tepi . pandang pandang je nampak abg huzaimi kak cyla dgn aza ,terus lari tak pandang apa dah , peluk aza mcm sepuluh tahun tak jumpa . then gerak makan lagi , masa dekat meja tu comel sgt ejat gaduh dgn aza :)

national comp 2010

best colourguard and 2nd place . haha

saya rindu menjadi ketua dan kakak kepada mereka ;(

more photos on facebook , btw malas cakap pasal band , cakap pasal org yg kita jumpa je , sbb nat comp mcm bukan lah boleh menjadi topic perbualan . haha kedudukan tu pun mcm entahlah kan.

mizan thanks for chopkan tempat duduk , penat ni drive dari cheras . haha

this part, buat aku senyum , at first i though he was all sombong and stuff , mcm da tak nak kawan langsung , but as i text him from where i sat , he was like pusing 360 darjah cari mana i. hahah , comel gila omg!he was looking for me . aww ;') then i called him and we talked , suka suka suka , tak tahu lah harini dapat jumpa dia tak ;(

HAHA , ini buat saya senyum :) tapi saya habiskan masa masa sy sebelum masuk ASWARA , nanti dah masuk susah nak mcm ni lagii . ;(

i just wanna shout!

asila hanim mohd shahril , zarifah zainal ,nabihah sudin, sofea razlin,amiza nadhirah, eleasa zaharudin ,nazirah fuzei, myra hasnaremy ,

atiqah ghapar, azmira aziz, asha roshada lot hashim ,

i miss you guys so effin damn much.

aza , i miss you badly

;'(

where are you?

where are you ? i keep looking , i'll never give up . will not and never , though i've been through torns and stroms alone . where are you? as i take a deep breathe i closed my eyes in silence through the sounds of instrumentically music in many ways that calms me down . each and everytime i think , inside is killing me . i know its still early for me to find or found you , but i wanna taste the escense of the feeling that everybody feels , which i think i spend most of my time hearing peoples thoughts and sounds . mine? where are you? i'll get back up if i found you and lost you again and again . deep inside i cant feel that my heart is like falen leaves on a summer spring , and i can hear the sounds of crashes while people steped on the dry leaves each and everytime i found you and lost you , it hurts . where are you? i dont wan to shout , but my heart is bursting with hardcore sounds that is unconditionally needs to be treat . where are you? i found tears along my way alone , some tears came from a exhuberant city called sadness and some from thrilled city called happiness . i became closed and oftenly meet them . they became the one that makes me strong along the way . i got you , but i cant seem to get or even understand you anymore . where are the real you? i came to far along the valley of the uncompaniened.all of a sudden its hard to find you.craving for the feeling of a hapy kid getting an ice cream . like a happy mom giving birth ,like an employe getting their paycheck , i just need a soul to save mine , where are you? where am i .

where are you love . i miss the feeling

to haiqal izlan

thanks for the evening adik , still rasa bersalah sebab adik kena marah . :(

ily .

my love

tersentuh actually bila dgr lagu ni . dengar lyrics dia ;(

konsert keynote ke 3

type KN3/5/10 FAAN :)

beautiful kak marissa :)

here are abg faan's family , kak marissa , abg haziq, kak rabiah , my brother and me on the camera . haha so gamba mcm teeetttt sikit sebab time recording tak boleh amik gamba . duhh

congratulations sbb dapat lagu terbaik second time .

rumah baru :)

lets face the fact

jacob is so damn HOT!

current mood

tak sabar nak sambung belajar , tak sabar tak sabar. tak sabar nak tu tak sabar nak ni .

i miss TL's.
i miss kuantan.
i miss kak aten.
i miss my high school years.

and

i miss e*** ;'(

cheercomp 2010

. but yeah it was my first time though .
congrats CYRENS? haha . apa apa je lah . but i got to meet haiqal ;) crazy little brother . i love you . haha thanks for teman-ing me . and wak dol , and your other friend comel je .
malam tu while waiting for riza join budak budak sbu and vi main truth or dare . haha sumpah kelakar . eldrin,adam,amar was there too . miss the moment :) byk lagi budak sebenarnya. RAMAI GILA . seriously , oh and and Allyn pun ada .

situation 1: jerit IM GAYY *clap to aiman . haha

situation 2: cium kasut

situation 3: cium kerusi

situation 4: lari sambil bukak baju . hahah

banyak lagi kot situations . gila gila je semua . eldrin tak kena buat apa apa pun ,

malam tu teman riza hantar ismeth balik melaka , :) then we went home , although time i spent with riza sekejap but worth it la , nanti lepak lagi eh . i kan nak spy you . pictures more on facebook :)

mgs sports day :)

congratulations CRAVEN .

bangga seyh aku dgn craven tahun ni . gud job guys :) photos more on facebook .

them ,

haiqal and asma . aww :) oh and i wanna introduce , this is haiqal. ezzat's little brother HAHA

yun and her sister ira :)

they have some sort of connection with me ;') both of them suddenly came into my life and carve a smile on my face .

to my little sister sofea, read this please :)

walaupun nanti kak d nak sambung belajar dah , kalau ada apa apa cepat cepat bgtahu kak d k? im here always .

not just only mine but the youngest sister in lalat's .
sofea razlin,

kak d tau apa yang awak rasa , perasaan awak , memberontak bagai sebab awak masih
kecik , and awak terkejut lagi semua ni , awak still tak berapa nak matang dengan erti kehidupan
kak d faham , bila awak cerita masalah awak kat kak d , kak d pun tahu perasaan awak mcm mana
kak d tahu apa yg awak nak sebenanya , kenapa awak menangis semua kak d tahu byer. susah bagi awak bila awak kena tanggung lebih dah kena memberi lebih jugak untuk jaga hati semua orang , kak d rasa mesti awak dah lega kan bila dah cerita kat kak d semua? kak d tak marah sbb kak d pun faham . kak d un dgr jugak pandangan dari mak awak , betul , hargai mak kita byer , sebab satu satu nya mak kita dalam dunia tu lah mak yg paling baik yang boleh kita dapat byer , cari lah satu dunia ni pun takkan ada sorg yg dapat tanding dgn mak kita sendiri , semua tu dah tuhan tentukan , ingt semua pesan kak d . kak d nak awak berjaya , kak d nak awak TUTUP mulut semua orang , kak d nak . orang tak pandang rendah langsung kat awak , kak d nak org yg buta tak pernah nampak kelebihan awak tu nampak yg sebenarnya awak lebih dari semua , awak boleh buat . ingt DUA benda yg kak D cakap kat byer haritu tau , ingt , byer dah janji .
kak d sentiasa doa kot byer bahagia , kak d tahu mcm mana byer rasa nak lari daripada semua benda , tp byer kak d mintak byer dgr and ingt pesan kak D haritu je , walaupun tak seberapa tp kak d yakin byer boleh buat mcm tu , kak d tak expect apa apa , tp kalau byer berjaya . kak d org paling bahagia sekali faham? ni masa untuk awak lupa semua masalah tu , focus kat study ,biarlah org lain tak nampak effort yg byer buat , tp nanti ,esti TUNJUK .

u can always tell me anything k byer? dari A-Z , dari atas sampai bawah , kak d will always be there for you , no more tears ? in fact awak ada lagi 8 kakak kakak yg terbaik dari ladang untuk jaga awak sorg yg paling kecik byer . we'll always love you , no matter what .

DiGi LIVE tour 2010

masa malam konsert tu tiba tiba ada pulak lah menylit pertunjukan bunga api , lepas tu je hujan hahahaha. trust me , best kot peluk byer :)

bboy hiro :)

topi kuning :)

around 4 , i picked up sofea . and straight away went to kbs. more on facebook ,
firstly mmg agak bosan but lama lama okay ah jugak , jumpa mia pun secara kebetulan .

i want

-flawless skin.
-skinny
-perfect hair
-right attitude .

as today i quote .
''i dont want attention for attentions sake,im not going to do anything for schock value''

sekarang jarang update blog . hmm im more on writing , its more personal.

i just realised

that as time passes , im the one thats only left . tommorow will be beeha's flight and soon kak cyla continuing her new sem . im left . everything is differrent . differ in many ways .

semua nak menggelabah kat facebook tu yg korg pun dpt masuk aswara? tak payah kot . im now terrified and horrified seriously , takot sgt . gelabah lah korang . hmm, i'll be like so damn home sick and gonna be missing my friends so damn much .sincerely,

Dee ,
pelajar akademi seni budaya dan warisan kebangsaan 2010
fakulti teater .

cover laptop -checked!

teman kak cyla beli barang . seperti kasut , beg laptop dan t-shirt . then aku membeli cover laptop yg da lama aku plan nak beli . hehe .

next plan : siapkan video lalats.

i guest 16 days to go.

thank you and your welcome :)

your welcome syg . i read it and cry . awww . bee . thanks for believing in me . i'll be that somebody , i'll make you yg comel tu proud okay :P its a promise.
thank you bee , for the necklace and earing . i'll wear em . because i'll miss u so efin much.

earing tu comel : definition cili sebab kau kuat makan pedas and aku belajar dari kau :) hehe .
rantai tu : aku sedang mencari rantai sebergitu , and mcm ada instick keibuan kau , aku dapat :)
cawan sudu garpu pisau dari ikea tu . : akakn ku guna . kak cyla punya warna pink .

thank you , thanks a lot .

kalau aku senang , aku tulis kat kau pulak surat yea? *in blog spesificly . theres just so much more to say . i love you babe, take care in sarawak . this two days that we spent , means A LOT .

beeha , i love you.

bye bye cookie monster , awak nak ke sarawak dah ;')

first and formost you are most welcome sayang . ini je lah yang mampu aku bagi hadiah kat kau sebelum kau pg sarawak . aku dgn kak cyla ke rumah kau untuk meringankan lagi kerja kerja kau mengemas barang tu . hee,ok , ternyata . sikit barang barang yg kau bawak bee , im impressed :) maklumlah barang kena berat 60 kg ? hahaha. we had fun . kemas kemas , borak borak , ketawa ketawa , bercerita perihal kehidupan kita kan?29/7/2010 we ate at santai , and ternyata tempat tu not bad and enviroment as well as condition dia best . WE TALKED . LAUGH . and even rewind stories yg dah berabad kurunya . suddenly i realise tinggal kita bertiga je kat kuantan . ;(