more than words

morning

semalam , what a day. hehe. not feeling like updating tht much sbb none of us updated bout yesterday. alhmdullilah everything went well yesterdy, ta ade org online. so i gues im just gonna update about others stuffs, bout phg comp, later lah k..here's the thing, when everyhting tht we always wanted we got and finally things started to complete,mcm mcm yg kite fikir,life is still life, spm is soon, other things is also ahead.sis went to jengka already, hope she begins her life there with good one.well, mine. still tatau wht the future holds. bak kate aza 'aku ingtkan da lepas comp tenang tp susah jugk sbb byk benda na fikir, i mean common aza kite kn form 5 sure la bebn tu byk,balik je dr outing dgn llts after comp sumph penat gila, rasa na tido je kat mega. oh n btw. im sorry eddie its not the wy things suppose to go, im mature enough to think whts wrong n whts right, im sorry, but im not the one fhm? kau na pompuan yg boleh layan kau 24/7 cri kat tmpt lain, not me.still smiling when looking at my dialled numbers on my phone. thanx to u : just made up my day.please dont go i need u as my bestfriend,i'll bring choclte cke full crem with oreo in it, promise. remember when everything seems so wrong u can alwys tell me k?:) lama sgt otp ngn kau since da lame ta beborak. then tetido. haha funny me, mule2 text ngn zmir,omg cnt believe wht i read kat youtube, about the st.john thingy, haih, its harsh man,btw i support viccb all the way .then cak texted me asked who won pahang comp, ckp la ringlet menang, then termintak tlg pulak
me:cak na mtk tlg?
cak:tlg pe?
me: tlg kim slm kat fikri
cak: ok.
you see wht i mean? no mtter how hard i try to forget u or run away and void thingking of u, the more impossible it seems because im stuck on u tho i have moved on . still july is 3 days away and u'll be going to italy n hope tht u'll be alright, u'll be fine. still im smilling reding ur text,miss u a hell lot.

go viccb ! rock on ur volcano show :)

she's a dramaQUEEN

well aku bukan dramaqueen, aku diana. seorang yang pendiam ta kena tempat tp selalu banyak berfikir? haha LOL, percaya habis.tah la. today was okay lah kott. after a day out with lalats semalam . everyhting macam almost there sikit lagi na kena capai. reach out and keep my head held high. haha the climb punya lagu.boyfriends? haha takda masa na memikirkan, cukup la im stuck on sorg je , tp mcm malas na fikir, study pun tah kenama sbb na focus on comp. maklum la senior year, ups and down tu tayah cakap lah mmg banyak, future? ta siape tau.pagi td how i realise my mom is the thing that i cant live without . hmm die terbaik. ta dapt bayangkan bila semua dah hampir2 nak sampai penghujung untuk permulaan yg baru kan?ape korg na buat dalam hidup korg buat lah, asalkan masing2 bahagia, aku ta menafikan yg benar, aku ta mengiyakan yang salah, aku hanya terduduk diamkan diri memikirkan, 'lepas ni ape pulak?' biasalah hidup, org maybe ckp aku pelik , yeap sbb aku seorg yg optimistik dan selalu berfikir, tapi ta ramai yg tau tu,org yg btul2 terdekat je tau, i cant be very independant at times sbb i have faith in myself, i love life, i love people around me, i dont act like 'katak di bawah tempurung'. im just being myself.im weird haha, at times,aku ta cover or ta berpura pura, gedik?maybe its one of my specialities,LOLfor sumone else,i can be rude but still sopan santun at the time, i can be crazy,i cant be whatever i want whenever i want,when i like sumone i go for it, but i cant let go easily . tp suka suki korg lah na judge hamba allah yg telah dicipta ni macam mane, im just perfect the way i am n i love it. sumtimes i have certain different smile that makes people hard to know me. because im hard to be understand, tp aku senang faham org. haha, i live my life to the limit . thats just the complicated me.

asila hanim

asila hanim,

31 august anak merdeka nieh lahir, lalu menjadi seorg sis kepada sembilan org adik2 nya dlm lalats, sbb dalam family die yg bongsu.haha..almost half and a year we've been together many things susah senang, sedeyh happy semua bersama sis. belajar membesar mematangkan diri. hang out, bergelak sakan, dimarahi disayangi. haha.. semua bersama, pada mulanya sis cyla ni ngn budak2 saxo je, hehe pastu muncul la hamba alah yg bername che pah ni mase dulu teringat lak kengan kite same2 ingt ta sis? makan kat mcD time tu kite due org je, sis time ue form 2 sy form 1 haha. macam2 kitorg borak, sbb sis seniorg palin garang skali dalam cg dulu seingt saya, tp tah camne kite sekepale. amik nak flashback 2005 terus taley bla. haha, btw as time passes by, semua makin maju makin membesar bukan mengecil , disatukan dalam lalats, yeahour senior cylala , start dari situ la kitorg ni mcm magnet lah taley dipisahkan antara lalts, try la buat pape je untuk jatuhkan lalats tol? korg yg sakit aty balik, btw sis seorg yg sgt penyabar, buktinye die sabar je lah layan sembilan org adik die yg perangai sorg2 ta dapat digambarkan.cakap pasal 2008 ,perghh kamilah yg org kate talk of the town, who care's if people hate us? i know i dont, org just envy sbb kau ta dapat lalui ape yg kami lalui rite? haha, talk shit about sis kami? kau bagus sgt kah? beli cermin yg lebih besar kalau ta cukup. btw, back to the sweet side, sis cam role model sy ngn myra kott, spm cemerlang nie ! haha kitorg bakal mencontohi.as far as i know sis jugak banyak tau rahsia kami, masalh hidup kami,ape yg kami lalui, for short sis knows everything.da beribu kali pouting dah dilalu bersama , party pun, eachothers birthday,important day, kadang2 dating , and hell yeah 'the sayrra' antara salah satu kenangan manis.kami bertiga sahaja yg tahu kan? spm ; 150 hari lg haha, asila hanim open orgnye. thats wht makes her special from the others. ka cyla la yg usung kami kesana dan kemari bersama kereta kenari nya yeah, thanx sis for everything, 27 ni state comp, hope sis dpt stg,lalats buat tribute untuk sis, then hmm.. gonna miss sis sgt2 sbb uitm jengka menanti sis, hope sis have a great stay kat sane, takpe net year lalts yg form 5 taun ni will be joining which is sambung blajar lepas SPM haha. ermm, tau jengka ngn kuantan tu cam dekat but mesti awal2 mcm busy with many things kan, happiness that brought lalats together will always remain forever, (jiwan g carrot) GONNA MISS U SIS :')

love diana & lalats

we love u sis :)

i HEART them

lalats outing : yeah:) pagi tu semua cam text sane text sini tanye mcm mane bout today, haha here are some pictures. bila lalat's outing well of course la best DUH ? lol

mag buatan tangan

edited by me, konon2 na buat magazine, haha boleh la blasah je, sbb last minit buat and kena hantar before friday, so ini lah hasilnya..

haha, lalats front page of our nie magazine. designed by ME :) ahahh. bangga jap. padahal magazine kitorg poyo je about teen studying vs. dating. but every material yg kitorg guna originally taken by ourself ok, ta ciplak! haha, duta magazine ni sis cyla ngn huzai.

a hell lot of things.

evening everyone, haha.

btw a lot of things happen and to buzy to update blog lately,

sumpah ta caye a hell lot of things that i go through this week.

haih, gotta keep on going sharifah, haha

i need to relax, tau ku tnga tension n streesd out with many things, but gotta keep on moving

, hee i cant believe it too. tp na buat mcm mane, its my life then,

td amik quiz olimpiad maths kebangsaan or sumthing , bla bla.

no mood for updating, tah la malas na cite panjang lebar.function kat stadium kawad kaki

tah ape tah, then hbis je trus balik

ptg td penat

baru check facebook LOL.

mmg ta cam klaka lak en, btul la kate sis,

tngok facebook boleh gelak sorg2. haha

yeay esok lalats outing! cant wait. :)

missing: people around me seems to come and go, kejap korg munucl pastu korg hilang blik then tibe2 muncul, kadang2 with or without planning. sabar je lah. btw, i never felt this way before, the feeling that i've ben missing a lot of people in my life. imiss my late father , i miss my adik iqi and paan, i miss my ex bf syafiq, i miss my friend kerol, i miss the old days, and most important i miss f, yang lain tu lantak la mcm mna, but i almost miss everything doh in my life, its like tah la berbeza.

kehidupan normal

yang ni sumpah tngah tekun kat starbuck buat folio add math takut puan nik marah, susah nnti, kitorg photostate farah punye dan dgn pantas nye meniru. sis was there too kitorg lepak and beborak tp me n myra are more focused on folio tu sis online hahah. tngok utube semua2 then gerak g makan kat ecm, kenyang2 the baru seda yg barang2 folio tetinggal lam keta sis, soh myra p amik. kitorg sambun g wat folio esok.. huh, what a day! penat, then esok ade meeting band plak tu, nik texted bru die tau bout my pinggang, haha die marah sbb ta bgtau, padahal tade pape pun babe chill sikit je.balik2 rumah je online and update my blog omg hari ni lepak ngn the sayrra lg, me sis cyla and myra :)btw, aku barut au yun ade fb, haha. miss him.

just wanna say budak ni comel haha, tak sanggup tngok die . gile comel baik pulak tu, ta nakal un cam budak lain. baik je dia ni. name dia adam. my brothers friend punye son. in person omg die ni cute gile. bile besar nnti mesti handsome, dijamin, he hold my hand and ask me to take him for a walk, how sweet is that? :) budak besar yg da tua bangka ta sedar diri pun ta se sweet die. haha. really love him, cara die cakap pun baik je. mase nak balik tu he gave me a hug and a kiss. hehehe umur die baru 3 tahun , hehe. i'll remember him sampai die besar nnti. haih susah na jumpe budak kecik mcm die ni, btw i do love kids ok. but for me to have one haha, xdapat larh spm un ta pas ag. heheh adam <3

hahah, bandcamps over and everythings back to normal. school n everyhting is back to normal. pagi isnin nak pegi sekolah t

p ta boleh gerak seyh, grr akibat ape un tatau but all the way bandcamp tu mmg da rase sakit but still buat bodo je, ta pegi skola ari isnin tu.cuti pluss school confirm tade pape, perghh dapat results lagi cam cuak je haih sabar je lah. the sis cyla came over at my house, we watched hanna montana the movie yg sis download, cite yg simple but ok la, then pegi teman sis shopping hehe fun time spend with myra n sis. shop shop till we drop haha, esok tu ku ke sekolah seperti biaasa, semua nye hmm ok je kot, balik tu pegi hospital haa amik kau! kena disk splitpe jadah tah. kena xray semua benda benda tah, habis habis kena buat phisotheraphy ke ape tah, hmm sakit kot. lantak lah, buat keras sudaa heheh. lepak ngn sis ngn myra was fun byk cite yg dikongsikan. haha. bertiga shopping. tulang bengkok ke ape tah aku ni harap2 ok soon haih :( oh and btw smlm terpost kat facebook i miss him an. tu untuk feyek pun bole jadi untuk yun pon boleh. hahah

syed azwan

bye bye :'( he's going to australia .. it gonna be a long time untill i can meet him again .abgku mmg best

week ENDS haha

BANDCAMP ENDS ....




lalats last day of bandcamp reunited again hahah :) after dipisahkan.last day sedeh je sbb na balik da and ta dpt stay same2 da . hehehe

me n aza trying to figure out steps for our slo .hahaha :)candid by sir harisman.

hero kami ...hahahahah, LOL, jeles nan camera nye. tp dapat pegang la jadi photographer jap :)

gile so many things happen hard to tell hard to describe. gahaha. bandcamp perghh it was ok la kott. here are some picture. tngok gamba sendiri tau sudah! haha.first day was. haha tah ta ingt. aku ni bukan lah robot dan tidak mempunyai memori card untuk

mengingati semua kejadian. tp sikit2 boleh la. haha gamaba kat ats ni malam last kott sebab semua semangat wajar. gahaha i love my guards doh :) malam pertama tah la pe jadi. merepek je kott lebih habiskan warisan semua2 handle guards ag makan minum jalan sane sini, dgn keadaan uzurnye haha. ngn geng mmg best la especially saxo ngn cg begitu ketat erat rapat seyh.

skip skip.

second day. hahaha macam macam...saya mahukan kehadiran sis cyla sgt2! tp yg ada perrgggg! ta bole bla je! adoyai, serabut arh kau, suka suki kutuk ka cyla an? pe masalah kau un aku tatau, tibe2 menyemak, bajet bagus seolah olah kau tau la segala galanya, tah zaman pok kadok bile tah ko muncul an. tlg please, tade maknenye. kau ta kutuk sis aku ta kisa ag ni tibe an mulut ta longkang taley lak. grr. then text sis . sempat ag nieh, mintak belas ehsan air 100plus haha. then nak sgt sis dtg mgs na tngok muke si dian ue camne tp na wat camne sis berseronok di cherating ngn pancing en en? hahahahaha

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third day sir dtg haha, cg sempat siap la semua benda. then hari seperti biasa omg cg busuk coz mandi pagi the tnga malam bru mand balik, ta larat na tunggu toilet yg ramai sgt gune doh. so relax je , tandas skolah . haih no comment. bak kate aza mgs mmg ta layak jd sekolah berasrama tngok keadaan asrama da tau ; haha.

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hari terakhir.. haha mals na cite sal bandcam poh tau tau sendiri suda hehe,thanx sir blanja lalats mkn and blanje sepuluh ringgit .kami mengahrgai nya sangat2 ! :) sir pun pulang dgn camera canon nye omg sungguh jeles seyh!

yeah,indeed

sis cyla's quote : hidup bukan setiap hari manis.

yeah, indeed. each day kite hidup ta semestinya indah. kenalah flexible bak kate aza. still a lot of thingking i da lame ta update blog. gosh esok bandcamp gonna be away for sure. hurmm. gonna miss things. n btw still today byk benda na dikongsi tapi tape la. berubah demi kebaikan.

sumtimes things go the way u didnt expect it .

kadang kadang aku nak sgt badan lentuk lentik mcm gimnas tu semua

tp na wat camne dr kecik ta di ajar untuk jd begitu. kadang2 hidup ni yg begolak galik mcm badan diorg haha,kan da ckp hidup ni mcm roda. what goes around pun comes around

kdg2 kat atas kadang2 kat bawah,

kita sabar je lah kayh,

wah falsafah! sastera lah konon.

td jumpe pojie, current mood: no comment

just wait n see one day.

btw; im gonna miss u abg ,my bro is going back to australia this saturday.hmm gonna miss him badly. for sure :( fairwell to the person i love again

tu je la mampu aku ckp. i'll change till i finnaly get me n myself happy.

btw kan no more f but since td die online and approve me then trus offline.

fuck kau la nak hidup mcm mne pun! da ta care bout u pon la weh.

im tired n i hate u,get it?.FULLSTOP

memories

28.1.2006 until 4.4.2006 : muhd syafiq aiman bin muhd nizam's, :') miss the old days. kalau aku ta syg kau ta mungkin aku ingt an?

fairwell

bye bye F.im not giving up its just that im moving on n changing .

some may say i just need to be more patient currently i am and i think

that its best for me to just let go of the past n change

im changing indeed.

ill never find sumone like u again.

no more f, haha :)

a conclusion

i knew that school hliday is almost over :( 2 minggu ta cukup sial. but yea hols is kind of boring rite?it doesnt matter , what matter is as i go through the first week i've been doing boy a lot of thingking. sure, we can live up things that sumtimes we cant.ok tergendala jap. tngah2 update my mum tnga lalu then she asked me to kemas a bit the house so kebetulan kat blakang ni ade pinggan buah td,i angkat the pinggan and guess what, watermelon juice just spilted on my keybord! fuck!! bad luck i guess. then, my mom said "nana AF tu hadiah an mak die mercedes.." then i was like " habis tu?" next month birthday umi. i cant afford to buy a mercedes.HAHA, hmm btw, she the best mom in the worlwide but sumtimes she gets to my nerve, biasalah ibu2. so a lot of things happen. a lot of people i met, tah la sumhow sumtime im just not happy, selalu susah hati, selalu berfikir, n one more thing. i've decided to move on and just let go of the past cause the only things thats gonna get me happy is changes, good ones tho,hope so la..im bored n kind of thrilled tah la so so happy so so not. currently dont know whats gonna happend next .only god knows.

oh and yesterday i met adli hazim, an old friend of mine. tp ta dpt na tego . sadly btu nevermine ada lah tu nnti nnti en.

i also met syafiq aiman: my ex boyfriend. sumhow tah la tho byk kali da jumpe die sblum ni but i was like omg gile syg kat die ni dulu. he was with his family, omg! adik die comel and the whole family was like comel jea, i finnaly got to see his mom. lawa la, no wonder she was so sporting back then when she talked to me on the phone, haa i remember, if only i was still with him, oh i wish because i never felt as happy i was when i was with him, my first love.

a story to tell part 3

keesokan harinya pergi klcc window shopping je

sis cyla with huzai

riza with mizan

diana and mira................

hahaha best semua kedai kitorg masuk :)

seharian d klcc

then mase nak balik tu things turn out to be happy for me sbb lepak kat

kedai sir kat danau kota.

da la makan free, dpt pedang untuk solo cg, dpt ilham dan sumber inspirasi

lepak2 n borak2 best lah kot. 

haha. it was fun indeed :)

satu table tu ade sir harry, sir hezrul, wan, aunty rahamah, abg pdot,myra, cyla n huzai came lpas tu. syed pun ade skali.

selepas makang, borak, gelak ketawa n all

betolak balik kuantan, haha.

me n myra mmg bising memekak je keje,sis text ngn huzai.

then mirul lak yg tnga hyper mlm tu call haha

time balik tu perasaan cam tah la ta boleh na describe 

happy + sedey = hadey HAHA

tau tau je smpai kuantan. 

THE END

                                                     lupe nak cakap.tibe2 minat lagu faizal tahir bencinta ngn sampai syurga.huu  

         

a story to tell part 2

haa tngok gamba ni tau2 sendiri an per cite die? haha malas na cite sbb the next day tu best tp tah la.

pgi pegi breakfast kat setiawangsa smbil text mazzie . haha imissher!

emm..ke mid valley

kat mid emmm.. tatau la kot..

i text u ta reply an? actually kat mid a lot of things happen.a lot of thingking

independant je kat mid.(sorg2)

sumtimes i wonder, nape oh u diam je?

haha sebelum tu duduk kat dpn toycity time tu myra da bla ngn cak. sis ngn huzai dtg diorg ckp diorg tngok wayang.haha then keta mainan ni sibuk kat kaki aku.

sakai tol! rosak rosak, main arh kat tmpt lain ni kat kaki aku, bodoh!

da la tnga bengang time tu

na nagis oh pike, tnga duduk kat tepi tu this one guy telanggar, time tu lak tnga feel sorg2 an,

mase die langgar tu air mate yg tnga betakung tu jatuh.haha lawak an?

mamat tu beria kate sorry,ingt an i sakit padahal tak un.

ingt an die sorg2 tp pas borak ue die cakap la na bla da sbb kawan die da smpai.

jalan2 sorg2 tenampak the same guy. oh dgn awek rupenye.

haha time tu an terus cam tatau da na buat ape pg kedai buku

sblum tu tawaf satu mid valey tu au cari barang

kalau kaya tak pa nak sopping ni ade bape hinggit je,

penat duk kat kedai buku,

bace buku chiken sup for soul,motivasi kot bak kate ka cyla

haha pape la skip2 blur je time tu

boring un ade

btw tape ta kisah as long as people around me are happy, im happy too :)

ignore this part!

you,

tah la. kalau dulu ade sebab untuk i happy, tp skarang mcm xda

bukan lah nak kate ape an, at least i na tauu sihat ke x, tu je

ta pe la cite pasal u sampai bile2 pun ta habis an.

i keep on repeating the same thing. tho im tired of it

just like what i said. after july un belum tentu things bak to normal

no da 61 hari.obviously im waiting n counting an?

tape la na wat camna an.

its hard to let go of sumone that u found different from others,just like giving away

my hope.

sacrifice.give time.give space.

a story to tell part 1

where to start? 

skip skip je la an skit2 . its 3:15 an still tnga ade kat sukpa tuk function yayasan phg tu

oh please lah, penat n agak tah pape okay.

sumpah ckp if i knew la me n myra bla mcm tu je .

tp TANGGUNGJAWAB punye pasal

ngn pasal KAU  gak la kitorg ni still hormat masa band.

sumpah pening penat letey semua ada, 

tau yg lain selok sgt dgn budak silat la , wu shu lah, kompang lah 

tah pape , otak aku da dekat sane dah, da piuke sal feyck feyck feyck da

tp sumpah sabar je la.

my adik da miscall n text, akak kat mane? then riza text tanye kat mane

padahal still kat sukpa.

tape lah na wat camna. berpeluh nye kaki sakit nye, na mengadap muke DIE lg

skit aty an, kau boleh plak bla awal2 . 

grr siut dah la tuduh kawan aku . 

mulut lau ta sakit an aty org mmg ta sah an

papelah .

dalm kul 6 camtu balik umah myra ciap2 

amik sis n abg pdot. my gosh da kul bape da

sumpah taley tido dlm keta

hah amik kau ,jam! jam na maty.

kitorg da cam ta ley nafas , taley buat pape 

suro abg pdot bawak keta dgn pantasnye

dalam kul 10 sampai vi trus jumpe paan.

na membuktikan yg sis ta tipu lah adik

jumpe2 tumbuk sis an? haha tau lah rindu

tattoo was ok.

jumpe riza :)

smpai je bunyi bagpipe,grr bingit! haha

tngok diorg perform. haha proud to say im their NO 1 fan kott!

hehe guards terbaik kot.

searching for............obvious doh feyck tp ta jumpe :(

org tu suro i pg basketball court

sblum tu bg hadiah kat aril

haha.

pegi2 je haih  ta pe la ta na cite, ta na ingt un kot.

org tu call i beria mase tnga free then tibe2 

jadi camni tape lah ta kesa

sedey ta gune happy un ta gune

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haa tp part ni best ; jumpe tapi buat 2 ta kenal aku yg MEMALAU. ahah

lanak arh na ckp prg sombong ke ta.yg pasti ta dtg skali okay? asing2,

then lepak ngn sis cyla, myra,riza and bell

then jumpe sir jap. borak2 sume. rindu sir hah, tp na wat camne ade org tu rapat ketat erat ag ngn sir an.hahah

borak punye borak punye borak, sis sakit perut

klua dr vi tu cm happy un ade sedih un ada..dapat jumpe zamir.HAHA :)

then g makan kat uptown, chiken chop! haha yumyum tau2 je hbis

smpai otel brisdale hotel tido.. haha

PENAT! sblum tido smpat amik gamba